Disappointment is the feeling of dissatisfaction that follows the failure of expectations to manifest. Similar to regret, it differs in that the individual feeling regret focuses primarily on the personal choices that contributed to a poor outcome, while the individual feeling disappointment focuses on the outcome itself.
Do I feel disappointed? Yes.
Do I regret it? No.
The outcome was not as expected. What can I do? Do I focus on the outcome, that maybe is today's sorrow, but its tomorrow's past, or simply I get the best out of the situation and move on? Well, definitely it is all about the attitude. Its not about one battle, its about the war, and well, this war is just too young to call it lost.
What happened? Simply the expectations were different than the outcome, what hurts more, that I tried my best, which was acknowledged as the best, but still it was not enough. Sometimes being the best is not enough. Guess its the art of having a God in heaven, that is looking for the best for me. Well, He is indeed wiser than I am, and I am sticking to His wisdom, in His perfect way of writing life, rather than my subjective view on life. Guess it is not about what I want, maybe it is what I really do need.
So today, I felt disappointment, and found myself surrounded by love and friends. Once again life shows me, that maybe we can do many things by ourselves, but it is so much better and simpler when we have people around us that simply care about us. The point is that sometimes we loose in something that is simple, but win so much in something way more important. In these type of moments, is when we should have our beliefs stronger than ever, to keep searching what we believe in, and not what we just lost or did not achieve. Once again, life gives me the reason, when I say that the love of a lover, companion, accomplice, and friends is way much better and important than any material achievement that comes from any activity created by men. Nothing is better than what is natural to the heart.
So I wipe of the disappointment, and move on, knowing that I was the best, and there will be a place, where I need to be. Until then, keep on trying with the same attitude, because as long as I have a woman like the one I have by my side, and friends like the ones that surround me, there is no battle that is lost.
Do I feel disappointed? No!
Dedicated to I.K. and H.S.